Consequences

We are in a proper whirl wind now.

We have cats to identify, we have meetings, we have people to talk with. We don't have enough time to cover everything. We are struggling with life.

I am so sad at another 'affect' of what we have suffered since our boys were taken.

We cat proofed our garden. We made our walls a prison to keep our remaining cats safe. Safe from complaints and safe from trappers. 

The consequence..... our Noms, who has suffered dearly without Monty, was ran over and died. That's it.

We cat proofed our garden, she flew out in protest at being confined. She didn't understand it was for her own protection. Dave picked her up, still warm at 5.30 am. He tried to protect me. He asked at 1030 if she was home. He asked at 12 if she was home. When he eventually got home from work he told me. He had hoped he had been wrong. He picked her up. Bloodied and lifeless. He put her in the bin. What else should he have done? Again we are heartbroken. 

We are going through the most testing time of our life. We want to save our cats. We want to save all the cats. We are losing ours.

It was a little easier to lose noms. We found her. We know what happened. Not knowing what happened to the boys is the worst.

I hold these people accountable for all the consequences we have have suffered and for our boys suffering. 

We have another new cat. A male. He is neutered, without a chip. He ate and slept for 2 days. This boy has manners. He was someones pet. Either lost or discarded, he is now with us. 

He turnt up at our gate. This is because our boys are not protecting their little corner of their world. There are strays turning up at our door. Don't they know we lose cats? They are not safe with us. We lost our boys. We lost Noms, we lost Yaz the kitten we tried to save. All these adversities we are having to deal with from one single, uninvestigated, unsubstantiated complaint. 

(Sterling - our new cat)

I have to admit. I am close to breaking. It is literally the injustice of what has happened to our boys that is driving me. I'm having to dig deep. I just don't know ...... I don't know what else to say, I just don't know.

I do know in my heart, I will not stop searching for our boys.