Judgement

 I'm getting that feeling we are stalling.

It's not what we want. We will fight this to the bitter end.

I realised this morning it's 100 days since Blacky was taken. Its awful to think of where he is now, especially if he is even alive.

The last photo I took of Blacky, 100 days ago.

He loved to pop out of the garden and very occasionally he would get into a fight. Sadly he is crap at defending himself. He always lost. He always ended up at the vet. He was a lover not a fighter, but tried his best to defend his little corner of the world. That's all. Just this tiny little place that was his home. 

He was never a problem to us, and definately not a problem to anyone else. I don't understand how the person that looked at him in that trap could do this. I imagine him in the trap all the time.

Since I borrowed the awful mechanism from a friend for a couple of weeks, it's made it all the more vivid for me.

Seeing a cat in a trap is the most heart wrenching thing ever, even when you know you are doing it for their own good. To remove a healthy, clearly older looking pet cat from his little corner is unbelievable. I hope the person who trapped him receives his payment in bad karma. Even that is not enough for me. I want him to feel and understand what he did was so wrong and has had severe repercussions for our boys and us.

The 2nd cat that I borrowed the trap for is too wise. He is cute, sociable but sadly intact. He will not fall for the trap. How did he get so wise? Why weren't my boys aware?

I had the trap in our garden and scared my remaining cats when they went near it. I don't know if it may save them in the future should they get out. I can only hope that it will. I also hope the trappers will not come near to us ever again. 

They picked the wrong cats this time. I'm desperate to expose all their evil deeds. I only have holding them accountable left, and I will, no matter what.

I need to think smarter about not letting the boys campaign fade away. I need to keep them in the spotlight. I am wracking my brain 24/7. There has to be something else I can do.

I know for sure, we will not give up on them. We just cant.